all day long I’ve been missing my boyfriend staring at the flowers he brought me yesterday, thinking about how I want to be with him
I’ve been feeling lazy and shitty all week and he was there to cheer me up
But tonight…I asked him questions about the future and he got deeper in thought and we basically discussed how we won’t be in each other’s future because while we’re 19 and head over heels now what’s the realistic chance that by 29 we’re still together??
He sounded so sad over the phone, I could feel my heart breaking
It was all my fault
When we said goodbye I was tearing up
I don’t want to let him go, and I know I won’t anytime soon but I don’t like reality crashing down on me ruining my one happiness